Have you ever been down the rabbit hole? Each night, I spiral down into this portal to go on a journey from one state of consciousness to another. Just like Alice follows the white rabbit down the hole and ends up in Wonderland, I follow my innate desire to heal and know to an alternative reality. Like Neo from The Matrix, who also followed a white rabbit, I decided to join him by taking the red pill and what I’ve experienced has changed my whole perspective on life.
This journey starts with inner ear sound that spins you to an alternate states of consciousness. I couldn’t get there with my old thought patterns and mindset as they were like outdated technology based on a patriarchal model that I adopted to survive. When I decided to thrive, it was time to upgrade. The rabbit hole is a Fibonacci spiral which is a feminine symbol connected with the mother goddess. It reflects life cycles, fertility, birth, and a woman’s innate intuition. Through my rabbit hole journey, I learned that answers to my questions aren’t always logical and clear. I had to learn to trust my intuition and flow as I’m led versus always looking for a path someone else created. This has been an eye opening experience because in this uncontrolled experiment I thought I had no examples to point to. To my surprise, I learned the answer was within me. I simply had to command my soul to share what I’d forgotten since I put it there in the first place.
The spirals are associated with the water element, as they are mutable. Through this lesson, I learned to stop standing and start being mutable. Many of my human role models were women who could go through hell and back yet continue to stand. Following their lead, I adopted that tactic early in life. After banging my head against several walls, I now understand that their path isn’t mine. My yin spirit requires a balance of stability and mutability. I was leaning way too far on the stability side and ignoring my mutable side. There’s an old slave spiritual that says, “We shall not be moved.” This song became one of the themes of the Civil Rights Movement. It’s not happenstance that our cause hasn’t been moved much since that time. Unfortunately, we got stuck because we keep trying to use outdated technology of that time for what’s going on today. A trip down the rabbit hole taught me how to be mutable. Not haphazardly but like the river that pours into the ocean. Like the stream that presses through mountainous rock to create a pathway for more water to flow.
As I spiraled further down the rabbit hole, I learned about release. That innate voice within me shared that the tools I used when I started my journey to heal and know would no longer have the same effectiveness. As I grow, so must my ability to live and manifest on my own. Babies require their mothers breast for the very sustenance they need to survive. They wear diapers to catch their urine and feces and shake rattles for entertainment. As the baby grows into a toddler, their needs change. In fact, they continue to change with each year of life. Similarly, I’ve changed. I used to spend my days in church and during that time if my life, it was a fulfilling experience and all my needs were met. As I grew spiritually, I had more of a desire to spend time alone, getting to know myself, and healing. As my body healed, I had more of a desire to deal with my emotions. As I cleared the emotional clutter away, I could hear and see in the spiritual realm. Each day, my needs change and I get rid of yet one more thing that no longer serves me. I add those things that foster my growth and development.
As I prepare to sleep tonight, I know I’ll be back in the rabbit hole. Once I took the red pill, there was no turning back. Like Alice said, “I can’t go back to yesterday. I was a different person then.” Like Alice, I’m off to a place where forever can seem like one second or one second can seem like forever. While I’m there to present myself with harsh realities, I’m also there to present myself with love. So goodnight my loves as I venture to Wonderland. May your journey to wholeness lead you to the rabbit hole where you’ll learn who you really are and what this life’s all about.
Peace and blessings.